Praise the Lord.  We have an unusual title to this message, so let me explain the title to you, and then I am going to read you some verses from Ezekiel 1.   I always though that the Scripture that I quoted, "and He shall not go out anymore," did I say it right from the King James translation, "and He shall go no more out."

From the King James translation, I had drawn the conclusion years ago that this Scripture meant no more incarnation, that we would live forever on the earth, but I now have a different opinion and what I believe that means at this time is that, those of us who are entering into Christ Jesus will enter into a permanent meditative state.  What does this mean?

Brethren, the Jew meditates, and the purpose of their meditation is to get closer to God and specifically to receive prophecy.  If you look at drawing #1, I have tried to draw something that will help you to understand what the Jew or the person, how am I going to explain this, because it is not just the Jew? 

Let me go back to my explanation for a minute.  I just will not finish that sentence right now.

In the past, anyone who wanted to contact God had to go in to find Him, God is within , but what is happening in Christ Jesus is that the Lord Jesus Christ who is Adam Kadmon who is at the most inner center of our being is coming out here to us, and there is going to be an open highway. 

There is one verse in the Psalms that always caught my imagination, our Alternate Translation is, "and there shall be, and a great highway shall open, there shall be a great expansion," and it just caught my spirit, but I really never knew what it meant.  Brethren, there is going to he a highway opened,  and it is no longer going to be difficult to get to the innermost place within our heart, where the Lord Jesus is, because Adam Kadmon is appearing to us as the Lord Jesus,  and it is very hard to get to Him. 

If we could get to the Lord Jesus and make a permanent connection we would stop dying,  because we are all the way out here in the World of Action, and the Lord Jesus is all the way at the most center place.  He is deeper than all of the worlds.

There are four worlds between us and the Lord Jesus.  That is why most Christians are so carnal, and the Christians who fast, the reason that they fast and pray, brethren, is to get closer to the Lord, to hear the word of the Lord.  The Christians do the same thing that the Jews do. The Jews do it because they want prophecy, they want revelation and Christians do it, I think most Christians do it, because they want a personal word for their life, or their ministry, or their family.

I do not think many Christians today are praying for prophecy or revelation, although some may be, but my understanding is that when the Jew meditates, he meditates because he wants revelation, at least the Jew that is into Kabbalah.  I do not think the secular Jew meditates.

The Jews that are into Kabbalah are specifically piercing into the depth of their being in the hopes of having an Ezekiel experience.  Ezekiel's vision in Ezekiel 1 is called the "chariot," and, according to Kabbalah, that is what you see when you get into the inner depths of your being.  The vision that Ezekiel saw represented the angelic world, the angelic world where the angels speak to the Jew who enters into that place and gives them revelation.  It is my understanding right now that all of the prophets that brought forth the great revelation, they were not just dancing around their house and one day a prophecy hit them. 

I do not know about you, but I did not know this, that for a Jew either 500 years ago or a spiritual orthodox Jew of today, because all orthodox Jews are not spiritual, but the spiritual orthodox Jew of today, to hear from God, they meditate, they have an active designed program where they sit down, and they do this, and they do that, and they do that.  It is almost a ritual, they used techniques to get in the spirit.

They use techniques to experience what we would call "being in the spirit," and according to my understanding it is very difficult for someone who is not entering in through Jesus Christ to get in the spirit, and this is what Ezekiel or at least the initial verses of Ezekiel 1 is all about.

There are barriers that you have to pierce to get into the spirit.  First, Ezekiel saw a storm, then he saw a cloud, then he saw a fire, then he saw a glow, four levels that he had to pierce through, and we see this same principle with Elijah. 

After Elijah had an encounter with Jezebel, and he was knocked down, the angle appeared to Elijah and strengthened him, and after the angel strengthened him, Elijah saw the storm, and then I think it was an earthquake, and then he saw the fire, and eventually he heard this still small voice. 

I never understood that the angel strengthened Elijah, and Elijah received the strength to pierce into the higher planes of consciousness.  The highest plane of consciousness is where the still small voice is, and that is where the Lord Jesus is or Adam Kadmon is.  You do not hear the term "meditation" in the church.   Even when a Christian fasts and prays, I do not believe they go in very deeply.  Why?  Because they are contacting the Holy Spirit.  In the Holy Spirit we have something that the Jew does not have. 

According to the books of Kabbalah, the Jews do have a Holy Spirit.  The Holy Spirit is, according to the books that I read, the spirit of revelation.  They do not experience the Holy Spirit like the Christian experiences the Holy Spirit, and it is not the same Holy Spirit, because the Holy Spirit that the Christians experience is the Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ.  The Holy Spirit that the Jew experiences is the spirit of revelation, and it is not the same thing.  The spirit of revelation is the spirit of revelation.  The Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ is that which was given to us without repentance, that we should have a relationship with God through the Holy Spirit.

The Jew has to train for years to be able to enter into a meditative state whereby he is close enough to God to get revelation, but I will tell you something, brethren.  There are not really many Christians around, I cannot say there are not any because I do not know, but I do not know of any Christians, well that is not true, there are Christians who receive revelation, little bits of revelation, a little bit here, a little bit there, a little bit there, but I have to tell you that  the only place that I see it coming together as a whole message is in the doctrine of Christ. 

What does it mean that Christians are getting a little bit of revelation, a little bit here and a little bit there, and a little bit there?  It means that they are not entering into the depths of the spiritual plane where revelation flows freely.  God would withhold nothing from us.  Revelation hangs in the realm of the spirit.  The only thing that is hiding it from us is the darkness of this world, and the darkness of this world is in our carnal mind.  Revelation is like fruit on a tree, there for the picking for those who get into the garden.

Let me put this to you up front because I am going around in circles here.  The whole purpose of the Jew in meditation is to get into their innermost part, to get into the linear Adam Kadmon.  Let me remind you that we out here, the personality, we are of the circular Sefirot, we are of the negative elements of the creation.  The Ayn Sof is both outside of us and inside of us.  If you recall the teaching, the Ayn Sof that is outside of us is beyond the edge of the universes.  

I do not know that much about physics, but from what I hear is that, if it were possible for a human being to make a spaceship that would travel to the edge of the universes, he could never come back home.  It is that far away, that if he came back home, it would probably be hundreds of years gone by on the earth, if he could even find the edge of the universes.  It is that far out there, and it may not even possible for a human being in a spaceship to find the edge of the universes in one lifetime. 

It is not practical for us to try to communicate with God outside of us.  The more practical way is to communicate with the God inside of us, and you may recall that the Ayn Sof, because He desires to communicate with us, penetrated the circular Sefirot in the form of a being called Adam Kadmon.  The light of the Ayn Sof pours into Adam Kadmon, and Adam Kadmon is in the midst of every human being, in his very, very center.

I have to take that back, I am sorry, Adam Kadmon is not in the midst of every human being.  He is in the midst of the Jew because of the Shekinah that was imparted to the Jew through Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, and He is in the midst of the Christian that Christ is grafted to.  If you meditate, and you are not a Jew that has the Shekinah still alive in you, or you are not a Christian that has Christ grafted to you, and if you go all the way into the depths of your being, who will you find?  Who will you meet up with?  Yes?

COMMENT: Satan.

PASTOR VITALE: You meet up with nothing, which is Satan.  There is nothing there and Satan is nothing, so it is dangerous to meditate if you are not a Jew.  At this point, I am thinking that the Shekinah is not even alive in every Jew, I am thinking that.  I am not really a hundred percent sure, and if you are a Jew it is dangerous for you to meditate if you are not keeping the law, because  when you go into the spiritual realms within you, you are confronting and mixing with the negative forces.  You need a cover, you need a safety net, so if you are a natural Jew you need to be keeping the law scrupulously, or it is dangerous for you to meditate, and if you are a Christian, you better make sure that you have Christ grafted to you because the Holy Spirit is not Christ, and Christ being grafted to you is not enough. 

You have to be identifying your carnal mind, Satan and Leviathan, warring with them continuously and prevailing over them.  If you are a Christian, and you are not engaged in exposing your sin nature and warring with it to put it under Christ, if you do not have good reason to believe that your sin nature is securely under Christ, you are in danger meditating.

"Pastor Vitale, what are you talking about?  Christians do not meditate."  Brethren, when you concentrate strongly on the word of God, that is meditation.  It is a specific mediation called contemplation.  If you are staring at your Bible and looking at it and praying and saying, "Lord what does that mean?"  It is a form of meditation called contemplation or contemplating the word but, in general, Christians should not be engaging any of the meditative techniques that are associated with Hinduism.  The meditative techniques that the Jew uses is very similar to Hindu mediation. 

I still have not made my point.  What is happening in Jesus Christ today is that an end is coming to the necessity of any form of meditation.  Jesus Christ is putting an end to the necessity to go into the depths of one's spiritual being to find God.  I have heard many Christians say, "I am going to lock myself up in a room, and I am going to fast and pray until I get an answer."  That is the Christian's way of going into the depths of his being.  That is how the Christian does it.  This is being put to an end by the Lord Jesus Christ, because the Lord Jesus Christ is opening up a highway whereby He is going to be present in our minds all the time. 

Revelation 3:12, "And He shall go no more out."  Christians are invited to go into the deepest spiritual realms with safety, which Christ Jesus who is our safety net, and never depart from that state of mind.  What state of mind?  Where God speaks to you continuously.  You do not have to fast and pray to get an answer from Him.  If you are a Christian, you do not have to meditate like the Jews meditate.  The Lord talks to me in the shower, He talks to me in the road, when I am on the road, talks to me everywhere, and I talk to him everywhere.  As soon as my mind is not occupied with some necessary duty, physical or material duty in this world, He is right there talking to me, helping me, giving me revelation.

What is happening is that the church is called to become spiritual.  The New Testament talks about Peter in an open eye trance, seeing a big sheet come down from heaven, an open eye trance.  That means he was not meditating.   Meditation brings you into a trance.  You have to get into a trance.  Getting you into a trance is catapulting you into another spiritual realm. 

When David used to play his instrument when Saul was murderous towards David, and David would play his instrument, that would put Saul in a trance.  It would get him out of his carnal mind. 

Some Jews play music to get into a trance, but they know that they have to get into a trance to go inward to get this revelation.   There has been no prophecy, I think it is more than 2,000-2,500 years that there has been no prophecy.  We have a lot of Jews that are very knowledgeable spiritual men writing all kinds of wonderful books that are blessing me, and they are meditating but no new revelation.  According to the books that I have read, the reason they think, at least the authors that I have read, they think that there has been no revelation because they believe that all of Israel, that the majority of the Jews of the world have to be in the physical land of Israel for the Lord to give prophecy.  That is what they think.

As I have told you many times with the greatness of the revelation that I see in Kabbalah, there is a major element missing.  From what I have read so far anyway, and this major element is that there does not seem to be any connection between the fall and the dispersing of the Jews from their homeland, with the sins of Israel, with the sins of Adam and the sins of Israel.  They do not connect the diaspora with the sins of Israel.  If they do not connect the sins of Israel with the diaspora, that means there is no confession of sin, and with no confession of sin, there can be no repentance, and without repentance, there is no restoration. 

There is still a lot of glory in Israel, but they are missing the keys.  They lost the keys, and they cannot get them back, but my message tonight is one of good news, because they will come back.  The Scripture says that they will be grafted into their own tree, but my message to you tonight and to the church tonight, is that we are delivered from meditation, and we are called to enter into a realm of consciousness that the occult world calls, "being asleep and awake at the same time." 

We do not have to go in to the depths of our being, we do not have to put ourselves in a room and shut everybody else out and empty out our mind.  We are in a continuous place where the Lord can speak to us, or we can speak to the Lord at any moment.

This is our inheritance, a part of our inheritance in Christ Jesus, but you do not receive it automatically.  Ezekiel, in Chapter 1, experienced four barriers before he heard the voice of the Lord.  He experienced four barriers, the wind storm or the hurricane, the cloud, the fire, and the glow, and I have that on the board for you here.  I want to suggest to you tonight that each of these four barriers that Ezekiel had to pierce into before he could hear the voice of the Lord is still being taught today to Jews who desire to meditate, that they have to sit in their place, empty out their mind and expect to pierce through these four barriers before they can hear the voice of the Lord. 

I believe there is a similar teaching in Hinduism, but what is happening to the Christian today is that we are experiencing each one of these barriers over a period of time, and I can tell you this because it is happening to me.  I am having a little trouble getting this message out, please bear with me, I am going to try it again. 

Let us take the first realm.  The meditating Jew trying to pierce through from the World of Action  has to deal with the stormy wind from the north.   This World of Action that we live in is a physical world that has a shadow.  Satan is in the shadowy part of this world.  We have called it in our past studies the etheric body.  You might say we have to pass through the etheric part of our being.  The spiritual part of the physical world is the first barrier that you have to pass through. 

If you are sitting in your seat with your eyes closed trying to empty out your mind and have an experience that would last if you are really successful maybe a couple of hours, are penetrating into the spiritual plane.  The World of Action, the stormy wind from the north, and we read about that, let me just read you the Scripture from Ezekiel, it is Ezekiel 1:4, "I saw and behold a stormy wind came from the north, a great cloud and flashing fire, and a glow round about and from in the midst was the likes of the speaking silence...", that is the voice of the Lord, that is Elijah's still small voice, "In the midst of the fire." 

The term "north" always has to do with the negative forces, so the first realm or first barrier or as Kabbalah says, the first shell, that Ezekiel had to pass through, was the stormy wind that came from the north, and we are going to call that stormy wind Satan.  The meditating person only meditates sometimes for five minutes.  An hour is considered a lot, a couple of hours, you have to be a real pro to go in for a couple of hours.  I fought this stormy wind for over a year, I do not even remember how long because I did not know what was happening to me. I pierced through this first realm at least ten, more than eleven, twelve years ago, the ministry is thirteen years old.

I used to sit at my computer doing translations, because this is the means that the Lord has used to bring me into the deep realms of the spirit, doing these translations, and I would just stare at my Interlinear Text and pray and ask God for understanding, I would be contemplating on that word, and I would be tormented.

At the time, there were several people that I would call for prayer, four or five times in a night saying, "Satan is surely attacking me, because I am bringing forth this revelation," and it was Satan, but I did not realize that because I was doing this translation.  I was penetrating the stormy wind from the north and I was going inward towards the linear Sefirot where the Lord Jesus Christ was waiting to give me revelation.   In my case, the Lord Jesus was penetrating out towards me at the same time that I was penetrating in, because I started to receive revelation even before the ministry started.

You have to be fighting Satan to get revelation, but my whole point is, brethren, I do not know whether you are just under a heavy anointing, or you are not understanding this but I am  struggling here.  Listen, the way it used to be, the way it still is with the Jew, they have to go through this, they have to pierce in every time they want to hear from God.  I went through this fighting this stormy wind, being in torment every time I studied probably for a couple of years, but then once I got past this stormy wind, I am in, and I am not going out anymore.  I do not have to go through this every time I sit down and want to talk to the Lord.

Although, for years every time I sat at my computer, I would get attacked in my mind, or if I wanted to do something for the Lord, a hindrance would come my way, a disaster would come my way.  Most Christians are familiar with that, that Satan will hinder you every time you want to do something, but I am talking about revelation knowledge, deep experience, deep spiritual experience with God.  It must have been a couple of years, every time I studied I was tormented.  Actually, it went on for several years, but it does not happen to me anymore.  I do not have to deal with Satan anymore when I want to get some deep revelation.

I just sit down with my books or my study material, and I just go right in there.  Brethren the door is open.  With the meditating Jew, the door closes every time they come out.  Let us say they give it everything they got.  Let us talk about Ezekiel, we do not know how long he was meditating before he saw the chariot.  That is what the Kabbalists call it, the chariot.  I think the church calls it "Ezekiel's glorified man." 

We do not know, he may have been meditating for hours before he saw that vision.  I do not have to do that anymore.  I did not meditate for hours, I meditated for years and now I am in, and I am not going to go out anymore. 

The next barrier that Ezekiel had to pierce through was the cloud, a great cloud of fear. The fear is also associated with this great cloud.  Let me remind you that everything that we hear about and read about concerning spiritual things has both a negative and positive connotation.  Binah is the cloud, the Sefirot Binah, who is eternal life,  but in this case we are talking about barriers. 

We are not talking about Binah.  We are talking about the clouds of the negative energy.  We are talking about the clouds of the circular Sefirot that want to keep us from getting to the linear Sefirot, because when we get to the linear Sefirot we are going to marry the Lord and forever we are going to be with the Lord.

When the Jew got into the linear Sefirot, it was only temporary, however long he stayed in there.  He then withdrew, and the next time the prophet wanted revelation, he had to go through the whole meditative process again.  The Jew's meditation is a couple of hours, the Christian's meditation in my case has been years, but once I got in, I am not going out anymore.  The cloud is associated, I am told, with a lack of sensory stimuli.  What does that mean?  This cloud is the second barrier that Ezekiel had to pass through.  This is not the cloud that was with Moses in the wilderness.  The cloud that was with Moses in the wilderness was Binah.  This is Satan's cloud, all clouds are not positive. 

Every spiritual concept exists in the negative plane and in the positive plane.  What is really interesting here is that I am preaching out of my personal experience; otherwise, there would be no way that I could know this or preach this to you except that the Lord has related it to my personal experience. In my personal experience, the barriers are not in the same order that they are according to the books that I am reading. 

According to the books that I am reading, I believe they are written by Rabbis who experience meditation, but the order is different than my experience, and the Lord just told me tonight, which is the third time I have read the material for this message, but I did not realize it until tonight, that I have been experiencing this great cloud for the last ten months or so, maybe a year.  I do not even know if it is a year, for no more than a year and maybe less.

I have been before the Lord, on my face before God, asking what is wrong with me and repenting, because what I have received spiritually has no price.  You cannot put a price on what I have received spiritually, and yet I have been suffering in my emotions and in my humanity, and the problem that I have had for this last eight or ten months, maybe a year or so, is that I feel that I am cut off from all intimacy.  These are the exact words that I have given to God, that I feel that I have been cut off from being touched. 

Of course, the brethren here kiss me, and so it is not that no one is touching me physically, for years, and it is not that I am not married, because for years I was very content with the relationships that the Lord gave me, and I had intimacy in my life in relationships, not physically intimacy as a man and a woman, but there was intimacy in my relationships and in my life, and this last year or so I feel that I am just cut off from everybody, and I am not cut off from everybody.  I have rich relationships in my life, I have brethren here, I have a physical family, and God has given me friends. 

I went for five years without having anybody close by, if God forbid I was sick, I needed something.  Now I have people close by.  He has just brought everything I need into my life, but I have been walking around feeling cut off, isolated and deprived of sensory stimuli, deprived of being touched, but I am being touched.  You kiss me every time you come here, so it does not even make any sense.

I know that if I was talking to a counselor in the world, they would tell me, "Sheila, you need a man."  That would be what they would tell me, and I have had this before the Lord, crying out for months now saying, ALord, I am so sorry that this is the way I feel, after what you have done for me and after what you have given me, and I would not trade it or turn it in for anything, but yet I have this problem.  What is your answer for me?  I am hanging between heaven and earth.  I have given up the worldly intimacy. I have one child, she is in Florida.  I do not even get to see my grandchild.  The only time I feel any relief is when I am hugging and kissing my grandchild, which I see once or twice a year.

I have been dealing with a lot of condemnation for this past year, and now in response to my prayers, the Lord is explaining to me that I am passing through this great cloud where there is a lack of tactile stimulation, but it is in the spirit.  I feel like I am cut off from everybody, to the degree, I do not want anyone to misunderstand me, of course I am not cut off from you all, but the degree of intimacy that has existed in my life over the years does not exist today. 

I have never been without a certain level of, I do not know how to say this, I really do not want to get myself into any trouble here, I am lacking the level of intimacy, spiritual intimacy that I have had with people over the years.  In all my entire life, I have never been so alone, but do not take that the wrong way.  It is not that I am lonely.  I am not lonely, I am alone, it is just me and the Lord. 

In all of these years, it has never been to this degree, and it is painful, although I am doing better these last few months.  I just accepted it, because I know that I am going on with the Lord, but what a relief for me to read about it in a book that what is happening to me is that I am going through the great cloud, and I have even told you that in all my life...I have more fear, and I do not have a lot of fear, but I have more fear in my life today than I have ever had at any time in my life, which is not a lot of fear, because I used to be fearless.

I also have had a revelation that this fear that I have which, do not misunderstand me, is not severe.  It is just that I was a fearless person, now I have some fear.  I have been aware that it has definitely been associated with this isolation that I have been feeling.  I have been feeling isolated, and I know that the fear is associated with it, and here the Lord tells me tonight...I have read this account in preparation for this message three times.  I did not get it until the Lord told me tonight that I am passing through the cloud, and I want to tell you that I am very excited, because what this means to me is that when I pass through all four barriers, I am going to be fully joined to the Lord, and I am never going to come out.

This is the experience that every Christian is going to have to go through to get married to the Lord.  It is going to take a miracle.  I am very tough, but I do not know how the average person is going to do this.  That is not my problem, but my problem is to go through, my problem is to answer the call of the Lord, because He has called me now, and that is my challenge to go through now, but I want to tell you that it is a great blessing to me to find out that this is what my problem is. 

I am passing through the cloud, and I am having a lack of spiritual stimulation that I have called intimacy, a lack of a certain level of camaraderie, and that probably is because there is nobody that I know that is where I am.  I can relate to people on a variety of levels, but I do not know anybody else that is where I am, and that puts me in sort of an isolated place which is, at least, a part of the problem. 

I went through the stormy wind from the north years ago.  I mean I have not been bothered by that first barrier for a long time, and we are told, I have on the board there, that this barrier, the great cloud that is associated with fear, that is where Leviathan is joined to the Fiery Serpent.   What does that mean?  It means that as I go through that barrier, I am overcoming my marriage to Leviathan, and you know the Lord told me about ten months ago.

First He prophesied it to me that He was going to divorce me from Leviathan, and I have been in this condition since the Lord divorced me from Leviathan, so it lines right up with what I am learning from the books that the Lord has led me to.  I am cut off from Leviathan, but I am not fully married to the Lord yet, and I am feeling all of this isolation.  Also, I have on the board there, that this level of barrier is associated with the speech of Jesus Christ, and I hear the speech of Jesus Christ.  

I have also lately been hearing the thoughts of Jesus Christ.  That is the next level,  and the book that I am getting this information from is called Inner Space by Aryeh Kaplan.  The third barrier is called the flashing fire.  Oh, I did not tell you that the stormy winds associated with this world, the World of Action, Asiyah, and the great cloud is associated with Yetzirah, that is the World of Formation.  When you pierce into this world where the great cloud is, the World of Yetzirah, you will begin to hear the speech of Jesus Christ.

What is the difference between speech and thought?  The difference between speech and thought is that speech is verbalized thoughts.  I have also told you, I am having these experiences before I read about them.  I know I mentioned to you that it has been happening to me for a while now, probably since I am in this isolated place.  I am in the cloud, and you know this has been happening to me, although thoughts are associated with the next level. 

It is different for me, I am having a different experience.  It is not exactly lining up with this, but I feel, I perceive the Lord impulsing a thought towards me, but it is not words. I know that I have told you that, and it is amazing that I understand it.  It is like something right out of a science fiction magazine.  I know it is an impulse, I know it is not verbal. Do you know what verbal is?  It is not in words, but I know what He is talking about.

That is the thoughts of God.  The speech of God is when He talks in words, and He does that sometimes too.  Why, and under what circumstances does He do one and under what circumstances does He do the other?  I could not tell you at this time, but I have been hearing the speech of the Lord for a long time, and if you ask me, I would tell you I am hearing the speech of the Lord a lot longer than I have been in the fearful cloud, but hearing the thoughts of Jesus Christ is relatively new for me. 

According to Kabbalah, you hear the thoughts of Jesus Christ as you pierce into Beriah which is the World of Creation, so I guess I am pressing into the World of Creation, and we are told that the barrier that rises up as you try to press into that flashing fire, which is the barrier of the World of Creation, is that you come under conviction of sin that is a condemnation.

There have many occasions that I have been studying late at night trying to bring forth the translations of the Doctrine of Christ, and I would just stop dead in my tracks right at my desk and just start repenting, and I never understood it until now.  I would say, "Lord, why now?  Why is this spirit of repentance on me now?"  I never realized that if the Lord did not bring forth that repentance on me, I would not have been able to get the revelation, that, that repentance cleansed me to the point that I passed through barrier. 

I never related the repentance to getting the revelation of the verse.  The Lord just told me the reason my experiences are not lining up with the order of Kabbalah is that I am the example for all of you who are coming after me.

I do not know any other Christian who has had this experience.  If there is someone out there, I have not heard about them or read about their experience, that as a Christian I am experiencing all of these barriers simultaneously.   I am sorry, not all of them. Well, that is true because I was getting revelation when I pierced into the stormy wind, and I was already hearing the speech of the Lord when I pierced into the stormy wind, but as far as I know I am just experiencing the great cloud now,  and the fear now, and the conviction of sin.

I have been crying out in repentance for years, so pretty much it is all happening to me all simultaneously, or as the Lord calls each experience forth, as He gets me through in His own path.

The fourth barrier and, of course, the positive side of the condemnation is the conviction of sin.   As you press into Beriah which is the World of Creation, as you press in, Satan will try to condemn you, because what happens is that all your sins come up before you, and to get through that barrier, you have to repent.  If you do not repent, you go under condemnation.  The barrier is showing you your sins.   It is how you react to it that is either going to get you through or not get you through.

Just for the minute, getting back to the stormy wind, I was tormented in my mind and in my emotions, but I kept on going.  The torment could not stop me from going through the great cloud, and the fear has not stopped me. I have laid it all on the Lord, and I am going through. Actually, I am doing much better this last month or so than I have before, and I am going to do a lot better now after this revelation. 

Then the revelation of sin comes.  That is harder.  Most people, well especially for me, because I have always been tough, I can deal with the torment of the storm, I can deal with the isolation of the great cloud, but now sin is coming my way.  Am I going to take condemnation or am I going to repent? 

A lot of Christians when they are confronted with this level of barrier to intimacy with the Lord, their pride will choose condemnation rather than conviction.  If someone tells them in a Spirit of Christ that something that they are doing is wrong, pride will rise up.  If I am the one who is telling them, pride will rise up and say, "Sheila you just accused me of that."  Accusation is sin.  I have not accused you of anything.  If you feel condemned when sin is revealed, it is because your pride has refused to repent.  When sin is revealed, you have two choices, to be condemned or to repent.  We are all experiencing these levels simultaneously and to different degrees of intensity.

Then the fourth barrier is what Kabbalah calls the "glow," and this barrier, when we pierce through it, we enter into the World of Atzilut which is the World of Emanation, and the World of Emanation is the mind of Christ.  The Mind of Christ is identified by an ability to judge righteous judgment, to get above your emotional soul ties and desires, to protect the people that you love.   "Sheila, are you against protecting the people that you love?"  No, I am not against protecting the people that you love, but as a son of God I know that the best way you can protect the people that you love is to tell them the truth.  It is to tell them the truth.

I have been telling you for years, and I have just found... almost everything I have been teaching you, I have been finding in these books on Kabbalah which is absolutely amazing, because I never saw a book on Kabbalah until a couple of months ago.   When I expose your sins, now I just read this, well maybe a different book, because I am reading five books at the same time, that when the truth about something is exposed, you then can raise that thing up higher. I just read it in a book, this is what I am doing for you.

When I expose a hidden sin in your heart that you cannot see, if you are willing to hear the truth, that character flaw in you can be raised up and used for God's glory.  That is what this is all about.  You cannot raise somebody up to a higher spiritual realm based on lie. Eeven if you are not lying, maybe you are just blind, if you want to ascend spiritually, the path that takes you up is truth.  

If one of your children, or your husband, or your wife did something wrong, if you can come out of the mind of Christ without condemnation, just in the truth, "Yes they did something wrong," then we pray for them, and God brings the victory.

If it is you, you did something wrong, if you could just admit it, do not make excuses for yourself, just face it, I will pray for you.  We will pray together, and God will heal you, and you will ascend spiritually.  We ascend on the wings of the truth.  Lies take us downward.  You cannot mature into Christ Jesus on a lie.

The Mind of Christ is the ability to judge righteous judgment, to find the truth in every circumstance, including the truth, we have to start with the truth about you, and then the truth about the people that you love.  It gets to the point where the truth is just the truth, and because there is no condemnation in it, I do not feel any guilt telling the truth about the problems in my family or the problems of myself, because I know there is no condemnation in it, and as far as I am concerned, I am going all the way.  If I do not go all the way, it is not because I did not try, because I did not do the best that I could do.

We tell the truth and God heals and delivers and things just get better and better and better, and this is the overriding characteristic of the Mind of Christ.  He sees the truth in every given situation.  There is a truth in every conflict.  The truth might be that both parties are contributing, but there is a truth in every conflict, and frequently people relate to one another, and there is no conflict because the operation of sin is so subtle that many human beings do not even recognize that they are being sinned against, or the person that is sinning does not even know that they are doing it, but there is still a truth of that interaction. That simple word that you said, it sounded harmless, but to the man that does not judge by what he hears or sees, but the man that judges by the spirit, knows that what you said arose out of a spirit of envy, and it does not matter that you do not feel envious.

The Son of God does not judge out of what he feels, what he sees,  what he hears, or what his conscious mind thinks.  The Son of God judges on one of these inner planes.  The Son of God, his mind dwells in the World of Emanation.  If I tell you something, a truth that comes out of the World of Emanation, and you speak to me from here out of the World of Action, and say, "This cannot be because I have no awareness of it," you might as well put a knife in your own heart.  You are completely undoing what the Lord is trying to do for you with the Spirit of Truth. 

The question that you have to ask yourself is, you have a choice, do you want to believe what you carnal mind is telling you from out here in the World of Action, out here in the world that is outer darkness, it is far away from God as you can get, or do you want the truth of the Mind of Christ, where you are just one layer away from immortality? 

What do you want?  You have a choice.  Out here in the World of Action, you have the Holy Spirit, you definitely have the Holy Spirit, and you could have the spirit of revelation, but there is no eternal life out here in the World of Action.  Eternal life is in here with Adam Kadmon who is appearing to us as the Lord Jesus, and there is no way that you are going to get through the stormy wind from the north, the great cloud of fear, and the flashing fire, and this glow which I will talk to you about in a minute, with a lie.  You are not going through.  The fact that you are holding on to the lie is legal ground for Satan to lock you out of immortality.

In many instances, it is legal ground for Satan to lock you out of a physical healing, because in here with the Lord Jesus there is full healing and immortality.  It is not in the Holy Spirit.  It is not Jesus Christ out here in the World of Action.  It is His Holy Spirit, it is like He sent His finger out to help you.  It is not the whole man. 

Immortality and healing and the answer to every problem that you have, including your kids, the problems of your children  is not out here with the Holy Spirit, because if it was, your family would not have the problems that they have, and you would not have the problems that you have, and I would not have the problems that I have.  It is in here.  It is in the world that is even closer to God than the World of Emanation.  Adam Kadmon appearing to us as Jesus Christ is in direct contact with the light of the Ayn Sof, and that is where it is.  That is where your healing is, that is where immortality is, and that is where the power to get your children out of sin is. That is where it is. 

You get into this spot, and any righteous thought that you have will come to pass. Your son is in trouble, you want to get him out, it is impossible for it not to happen,  but that is not happening with the Holy Spirit out here.  It may happen with the Holy Spirit, but it is really not.  It is rare.   The truth is very important in attaining all of the promises, but this message is about meditation. 

Just in case I did not make it clear, any Christians listening to this message and manifesting, I am relating meditation to prayer and fasting in the church.  A Christian prays and fasts to get closer to God to get an answer from God, to get a miracle.  The Jew meditates. Both the Jew and the Christian are trying to get to that holy place, Adam Kadmon, the Lord Jesus, the place where the light of the Ayn Sof flows in with unlimited power, with infinite power.

There is infinite power in the inner recesses of our being.  If you are a Jew, and you have the Shekinah, or if you are a Christian and you have Christ, if you are Christian, and you do not have Christ, what you have to do is get Christ.  How do you get Christ?   You get Him through the foolishness of preaching, but you have to humble yourself, James says, receive with meekness the engrafted word.  Why would he tell you that?  Because the pride of the Christian with the Holy Spirit does not want to believe that there is something more than the Holy Spirit.  The seed which is Christ enters into your brain through anointed teaching like this, and then it has to work its way down to implant itself, just like in human reproduction.  Does the ovum not get fertilized and then has to implant itself in the lining of the womb?  The seed of life goes into your brain, it has to travel down into your belly and graft itself to Abel.

Praise the Lord. I did want to tell you one other thing about this flashing fire. The flashing fire is the exact opposite of the great cloud.  The great cloud is sensory deprivation. That means you feel emotionally dead.  That is exactly what I was going through.  I was feeling emotionally dead, isolated, cut off from all emotions. 

The flashing fire which works with condemnation is the exact opposite.  It is an overload of sensory stimuli.  You are all emotional, you are feeling condemned, you are crying, you are very sensitive, and your feelings get hurt.

Based on my experience, which is the only thing I have to teach you from, you can go in and out of all of these barriers, Satan causing you torment in your mind and your emotions, isolation, lack of sensory stimulation, fear, overload of sensory stimulation, condemnation, over sensitivity to sin.  It is in here also in the World of Creation where you are sensitive to other people's sin.  

I have had that problem for years that I am over sensitive to other people's sin.  I have had to learn how to deal with it, because it causes me pain.  Someone sins, they do not even know what they are doing, and it like there is a knife in my heart, and I have to deal with it, because what do you say to people that do not even know what they are doing?

Again, I have received relief from these studies in Kabbalah where I have read that when you are in a meditative state...the book on Kabbalah is talking about the way the Jew meditates, sitting there in a trance.  They say the slightest noise is perceived by the person in the meditative state as a million times louder than it is.  I am relating that to my sensitivity to sin.  You do not even know you are doing it, and I am in total agony, and the way...I am still completely human, believe me, the way I react to that kind of pain, the way I used to is changing.  I am forcing it to change by the power of God.  My reaction would be to lash out.

It is just as if someone comes over and knifes you, and most people would have a reaction to strike back.   If someone comes along and punches you, most people would hit back, and everything rises up in me to attack when I feel that sin.

The Lord is delivering with understanding.  It has really helped me to understand that people do not even know what they are doing, and they are not feeling what I am feeling.  I used to think they were feeling what I was feeling, but they are not.  My biggest weapon in this area is forgiveness, and compassion, because they do not know what they are doing, or even if they know what they are doing, the answer to the problem is forgiveness and compassion, because even if they know what they are doing, they are just ignorant.

You have to be crazy to sin against someone like me, or anyone walking with God. You have to be out of your mind.  When someone sins against you, or when someone sins against me, we are supposed to be on our face praying for them.  There has to be a very not good recompense for anyone doing evil to anyone of us, and it may not happen the next day.  It may happen a year later.

Going back years ago when I did not who I was, I knew I was in God, but I did not know who I was, I went through some very bad times in employment.  I lost a lot of jobs, because wicked people were coming out of the woodwork, and at the time I was without a husband and supporting a child.  It was a very painful experience for me, and over the years I would hear about the firms that I worked for and the destruction that came upon those people.  At one point, it was really frightening me.  One man's wife got a brain tumor, his marriage was wrecked, his wife was a vegetable, he was a young man, and another woman got a spot on her lung.  I do not know whether she died or not.  Someone else died, and their only two children died.  I went through a period where I said, "Lord, is this a spirit of witchcraft on me, what is going on?"  I never prayed evil against these people.

It is not enough to pray evil against them.  You have to pray for their life, because just the fact that they are trying to hurt you is going to bring this kind of destruction on their life, so everyone that you know has evil thoughts towards you conscious or unconscious.  If you want to be a son of God, you are supposed to be forgiving their sins and praying for their life.  I tell you the truth, you have to know who you are, and if you know who you are, it makes it much more tolerable. 

It is all how you look at it.  Are you being persecuted, or are these ignorant people, is Satan rising up in these ignorant people trying to hurt you, is the glass half full, or is the glass half empty?  Who are you?  Are you a victim or are you the son of God?  Brethren, you are a walking weapon, we are walking weapons.  People that come against us get hurt, do not be deceived because it does not happen the next day.  Pray for your enemies that you might be a son of God.

We are talking about the meditative state.  The inheritance of the Christian is to be continuously in a meditative state, a highway is being opened, a great expansion between outer darkness, the World of Action, and the innermost realm, which is beyond the four worlds.

There are four worlds, the World of Action, the World of Formation, the World of Creation and the World of Emanation, and even deeper than that is where the Lord Jesus is, Adam Kadmon.

A highway is being opened between the Lord Jesus and those of us out here in the World of Action.  Jesus was in heaven and earth at the same time, that is what this means.  He was in a continuous meditative state.   I did not know who I was, I did not do anything to get this way.   All I did was study.  The Lord told me to study, and I studied.  I had no idea who I was or what was happening to me, and I heard about people fasting and praying and locking themselves behind doors for two weeks before they heard from God.  I could not figure it out. I just said, "Hey Lord," and He said, "Yes." 

I could not figure this out, what people were doing locking themselves behind closed doors trying to hear from God.  The Lord moved me into the New Order very soon, very early.  Does that mean I am better than you?  No, it is for everybody.  This privilege is for the whole world.  What is a free gift is the power to achieve it, but you have to work it.  The power, and the privilege, and the opportunity to achieve is the free gift.  It is like a scholarship. 

If you get a scholarship into Harvard, that means you are accepted into the university, your tuition is paid, and maybe even have some spending money and room and board, but if you do not go to class and pass your exams, you are not going to get that degree, because the reason you are going to Harvard is to get the degree which will get you a job, which will give you an opportunity to express your creative potential, and perhaps make a lot of money also. 

This is the inheritance of every Christian, the privilege to pursue this experience, the power to pursue it, and the instruction is free, no tuition, but you better not be taking this course and not tithing.  I do not recommend that at all.  The course is free, but whether you have the course or you do not have the course, you have to gives tithes and free will offerings as the Lord leads you, each man according to his ability as the Lord sees it.   

Praise the Lord.  The permanent meditative state.  Do you remember in Isaiah, I think it was the Syrians, I could have the wrong people, came to the men of Judah that were sitting on the wall, and said, "We are going to huff, and we are going to puff, and we are going to blow your house down," and they went to the king, and the kind went to the prophet, Isaiah, and the prophet Isaiah went into a meditative state and heard from God, and then the prophet Isaiah went back to the king, and said, "Do not worry, the Lord is going to take care of it."  I wonder how long that all took.  I wonder how many days that all took. 

Just on the basis that the men on the wall had to go the king, who had to go to the prophet, who had to go back to the king, if you are a Christian, you have the privilege of having Christ grafted to you and to have a highway erected in you, a permanent highway that will override all of the four barriers to the ear of the Lord Jesus Christ.   Esther went in to see the king, and if he did not hold out the scepter to her she would have died. 

If we try to pass through these four barriers without the permission of the Lord, we will die spiritually.  What does it mean to try to pass through these barriers without the permission of the Lord?  What is the permission of the Lord? 

How do we know we have the permission of the Lord to attempt this?  What represents the permission of the Lord to us?  Are we under the law?  The Jew has to be under the law, that is the permission of the Lord.  You better have Christ grafted to you, and you better be sure Christ is grafted to you, or you could have some problems.  There are a lot of people, mostly men, a lot of people in the church today getting revelation that is not from God mostly with regard to the book of Revelation.  They are hurting a lot of people.  They went in and they went in without Christ.

I think I am making my point.  I have to tell you what this glow is.  We did not get up to that yet.  Revelation knowledge is in Adam Kadmon which is the Lord Jesus Christ, so that means anyone, any Christian, who has truly received revelation knowledge has connected with the Lord Jesus Christ on some level.  It does not mean he is completely connected with the Lord Jesus, because if he was completely connected with the Lord Jesus, he would have entered into immortality.

 With all of my revelation, I still have a problem with my immune system.  Revelation is much stronger in me than the rest of my being, that part of me that receives revelation has charged way ahead of the rest of me.  That is your condition also.

This ability to receive revelation is way ahead of the rest of me.  Let us just do a little review here before I give you the last element.  The barriers to union with God, the World of Action called Asiyah is the stormy wind, Satan, the World of Formation, Yetzirah, is the great cloud.  Oh, we want to do that, I have a revelation on this great cloud of Hebrews 12:1. Let us do that right now, do you have your Bible handy? 

COMMENT:   Hebrews 12:1, "Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us."

PASTOR VITALE:    The King James translation makes it sound like this cloud of witnesses is a good thing, but I looked in the Interlinear Text.  It does not mean that at all. The word "witness" is the Greek word translated...I am sorry, I went into the Hebrew, and I looked up the Hebrew word that means witnesses, and there is a second Hebrew word with the same consonance, just one vowel off, one dot, one little dot off, one word has three dots for a vowel and the other word has two dots for a vowel.  It could have easily been a mistake from the scribe, or whoever was doing the translation, just drew the conclusion that in this translation the word had to be witnesses, but I say, "No, the other word applies."  The word that means "within."

Paul was talking about the cloud within, and he is saying, "Let us pierce through this great cloud within, let us put aside every weight of sin, because you cannot pass through with sin, put your sin away, and let us pass through the cloud, and get on with getting closer to God, let us run this race."  The race is from the World of Action into Adam Kadmon, who is appearing to us today as the Lord Jesus Christ.  "Let us go on to immortality." That is what Paul was saying.

This King James translation, I am going to put it on every tape that it is good to bring you to the Holy Spirit, it is good for reconciliation, it talks about faith in Jesus Christ, but I have been telling you for years, Satan will let you go as far as she knows she cannot stop you.  If you are going to take that step into faith in Jesus Christ, she cannot stop you. 

She will say, "Okay, but I will stop you at the next step.  You got as far as being reconciled, okay, but I will stop you right here."

That New Testament is completely emasculated, it is completely castrated, any spiritual growth beyond the basic reconciliation.  Praise the Lord.

The second barrier is the World of Formation, Yetzirah, that is the great cloud representing Leviathan's union with the Fiery Serpent.  Remember the Fiery Serpent, every man born of a woman has a Fiery Serpent.  That is the core of our being.  Leviathan exists on a deeper plane.  Leviathan exists here in the World of Formation and is connected to us.   The Fiery Serpent is out here in the World of Action in the individual.  Leviathan is in the World of Formation attached to all of the Fiery Serpents in the World of Action.  We have to be divorced from Leviathan, and when we are divorced from Leviathan, we will experience a lack of sensory stimuli.  That is why I have been feeling so isolated.  Fear is associated with that isolation. 

The third barrier is the World of Creation, Beriah, and that is associated with flashing fire or lightning and condemnation, and this, the power to...and, of course, the flashing fire is an overload of sensual stimulation, an overload.  You will be over sensitive, you will be feeling other people's sins, and as I told you off the tape... let me put this on the tape, it is really important, when you get this sensitive, you start feeling other people's,  not only feeling it but experiencing in your mind and in your emotions other people's sin. 

Listen brethren, condemnation is sin, so if someone is feeling condemnation that is sin and it will register in your heart center.  I want to put this testimony on the tape that I gave you earlier that was not recorded.   I stopped off to say hello to somebody a couple of days ago, and they were talking to another person.  I interfered, I said, "Excuse me," and I just wanted to say hello to the person and I left, and for two days I was being attacked with condemnation in my mind and in my emotions that I should not have interfered with that other conversation. 

I rebuked the condemnation, I would not receive it, but it would not go away. Then today I ran into the woman that I had said hello to, the woman that I interfered with her conversation to say hello to her, and she came to me and said, "Sheila I am so sorry that I did not talk to you longer because I was talking to that other person, did I hurt your feelings?"  It was her condemnation, and it was not even true.  She did not hurt me, she talked to me for a long time while that poor guy was just standing there.  She was feeling condemnation that she had mistreated me, and it was registering in my mind and my heart as condemnation that I should not have interfered in that conversation.

You become very spiritually sensitive when you pierce through into the World of Creation.  Also, remember that the Ayn Sof is absolute unity, absolute unity, He is one, and everyone that passes, He is not even a He, it is the Ayn Sof..  "It" is absolute unity, and everyone that attains to that level...Jesus Christ has attained to that level, Jesus Christ is flowing in absolute unity with the Ayn Sof.  There is no longer any difference.  That means as we ascend spiritually, it is not really an ascension, it is a piercing inward.  We are becoming one with the whole human race.  The more we pierce in, the closer we get to the Ayn Sof, the more we enter into unity.  The division is out here in the World of Action.  This is the age, this is the divided age out here in the World of Action.  As we go in, we go closer and closer to absolute unity. 

I just experience the feelings and the thoughts of people that I have contact with.  I think if I experienced the thoughts and feelings of the whole world, it will kill me, I would go insane at least at this level.  Did Jesus experience the thoughts and feelings of the whole world at one time?  I do not know. 

In my experience, I have to know the person, but we are going inward, we are headed  towards absolute unity.  The division decreases as we go in.  This is why I have knowledge of you frequently.  I do not know everything that is in your thoughts, but I know a lot of your thoughts and sometimes I know things about you that you do not even know, because I, you might say, I am in there in your mind.  I am on the level of mind where we are one, and I may be on a level of mind with you where we are one and you are not even in there, because you are all living out here in the World of Action, but that does not mean that you do not exist on an inner level.

Everyone exists on the subconscious level, and on the unconscious level.  If you never look in, if all of the time you are looking out, and you are not looking in towards the subconscious and the unconscious level, it does not mean you do not have a subconscious and unconscious level, but if I am hanging out here in the World of Creation, I can know what is going on, on your subconscious and unconscious level when you do not, because I am in but you are out.

That is just like saying, God forbid, you have got some disease in your body, and you do not know what is in there so long as it does not bother you, but you put an x-ray machine on you, and that will show you that it is there. 

The fourth barrier, the World of Emanation called Atzilut.  Ezekiel calls it a glow, and I am told in the books of Kabbalah that this glow is a semi-permeable barrier.  I am suggesting to you that it is Cain and Abel, what we have called a maidenhead when we did the study in Jonah. 

That is this last barrier over here, just before you get to the Lord Jesus, Adam Kadmon, and that is the barrier that will keep you out of the mind of Christ.  You may remember the teachings that Cain lays over Abel, and Cain is the maidenhead that stops Abel in us, Abel in the person who is going inward.  I am connecting with Adam Kadmon or the Lord Jesus. 

It is interesting, the Kabbalistic view of the function of this semi-permeable barrier, I must strongly disagree with.  No matter how much revelation knowledge that you have, when you hit a point that you have no revelation, you are as ignorant as the next person, and I see that the... unless you know it is just not in the books.  Maybe there are Kabbalists that have this revelation, maybe it is all oral, it has not been written down, I do not know, but what I read in the books is that there is a total lack of revelation that relates the present condition of the world and of Israel to sin.

The explanation in the book, Inner Space, of this glow is that the...what does this mean, a semi-permeable barrier?  It means that light goes both in and comes out, goes both ways, and it is like a filter.  Certain filtered amounts of light go in and come out, so that means the light from Adam Kadmon which is the Lord Jesus is coming into this World of Emanation, and also we who are meditating are pressing into this World of Emanation, and the Kabbalistic explanation of Aryeh Kaplan is that...(End of Tape 1)

 

Tape 2

 

I see that Aryeh Kaplan is really quoting Isaac Luria who they call the great Ari.  Ari means lion. The great Isaac Luria teaches that this barrier, this semi-permeable barrier, is the means of nourishing the realm of evil.  It is also the means through which the sparks of holiness embedded  down here are set free and are allowed to return to their source.  It is really talking about Cain and Abel.  Abel is the spark of holiness, remember?  He is the holy seed. 

Abel is the spark of holiness that is trapped down here, and Abel has to go through that barrier to join with the Lord Jesus to be restored, but I do not believe that, that barrier is the means of nourishing the world of evil.  That barrier is there to stop the spark of holiness from going back to its first estate.

The great Isaac Luria, I am telling you, this is true of every great teacher, of every teacher great and small.  Where your mind is illuminated by the Spirit of Christ, you can have great revelation, and if the Spirit of Christ is not illuminating you, you are off, you are off.  Praise the Lord.

Down on the bottom of the board, this is drawing #1, I just have, what did I do here?  The World of Action is associated with the Holy Spirit, the World of Formation is Yetzirah and is associated with the speech of God.  Some Christians hear audible voices.  It does not have to be an audible voice.  The speech of God does not have to be an audible voice.  The speech of God could be thoughts in your mind, speech is thoughts.  We are running into a problem here because, I am telling you that the World of Creation is the thoughts of God, but according to...you have to understand that we have one definition, the vernacular here on the way we speak English, and Kabbalah has another definition. 

To me, until I learned this, that a thought is a unity...let me explain that to you. Maybe I did not explain that before.  According to Kabbalah, thought is a unity, it is non-verbalized, it is non-verbal, thought is non-verbal.   How could you learn from a non-verbal thought?  I personally do not know how to have a non-verbal thought.  

Non-verbal thought can only come to us through the channel of understanding, and understanding takes that non-verbal thought and breaks it down into individual ideas.  You are all looking at me, hold on, let me try again.  It is as if you had a package, a box came in the mail today, or the other day, it was a box that had three volumes, the books that I ordered, but when I looked at the box, it was just one box, and I did not know what was in there, although I suspected what was in there. I did not know what the books looked like, I did not know what the books said, but I knew that it was three volumes of books, but all I could see was the one box, and I had no more knowledge than that. 

That is what thought is, and for us to understand it, it has to be broken down into individual ideas, so I opened up that box and I found three books, three books that I was able to open and to read, so that unity of thought, I could not do anything with it until I broke it down into what Kabbalah calls speech.  Speech is the thought broken down into separate ideas.   According to Kabbalah, that is the definition of speech and thought. 

Speech is the idea that the thought is broken down into... but now let us come back to English, let us use the English definitions here. 

I want to say to you that the speech of God is not necessarily an audible voice. It is possible to hear somebody's thoughts.  There is a difference between hearing an audible voice in the spirit and hearing thoughts.  Sometimes one word or several words mean different things in different...they could be the same language in different areas of the country.  It is called the vernacular or the idiom.  In other words, I think in Australia, the name "Sheila" is just a general name for woman.  If you go to the ladies room in Australia, on the ladies room door it says "Sheila."  It is called the vernacular or the idiom. 

We see we are talking right now about the words thought and speech, and I have on the board with drawing #2 what these two words mean in Kabbalah, what these two words mean in the English idiom, and what these two words mean spiritually speaking as we study spiritual things.

According to Kabbalah, thought is a unified non-verbal whole unfolded. That box that I told you about, it exists but you really do not know what is in it.  Example: the Doctrine of Christ, thought,  what does that mean?  We preached the Doctrine of Christ here for years. The Doctrine of Christ is a unified, non-verbal whole.  Of course, the Doctrine of Christ is verbal, this is just my example.  I do not know how to give you an example of a non-verbal thought, but I will give you an example of a unified whole which is the Doctrine of Christ. 

Speech concerning the Doctrine of Christ, speech is thoughts or thought unfolded into ideas.  The Doctrine of Christ unfolds into many sub-doctrines.  Jesus will end reincarnation.  I could preach for an hour on that.  Cain must divorce Leviathan.  Satan will be boiled.  Christ Jesus is the high priest that will consume Leviathan.  All of these ideas unfold from the unified whole called the Doctrine of Christ.  Is there anybody who does not understand this?  Do you understand?

The same two words in the English idiom, if I talk to you in conversational English, to me the word "thought" means ideas.  These are my thoughts, let me tell you what my thoughts are on this issue.  Thought means ideas.  Speech is spoken language.  I am going to speak out my thoughts to you, that is the English idiom, but coming from a spiritual point of view, thought means motive, the thoughts or the intents of your heart, motives. 

Speech, unspoken verbal ideas, how could it be verbal if it is unspoken?  Because it is spoken in the spirit.  Spiritual speech is what you hear coming out of my mouth now, verbal speech, spiritual speech, you can hear that in the spirit.  Spiritual speech which is the verbal idea, that means a pronounced idea, an idea that is pronounced in words can be heard by someone whose consciousness abides in the World of Creation. 

That is why I hear thoughts, not all the time, but I hear a lot of thoughts.  I usually hear the thoughts under two circumstances, if sin is manifesting in someone that I am near, or if they are in some kind of distress.  I can hear the thoughts or the motives or the intents of your heart, when the Lord opens my ears. I do not have any control over it.

Spiritual thought, that was spiritual speech can be heard by someone whose consciousness is in the World of Creation, spiritual thought which its motives are not heard.  Motives are discerned.  Motives are non-verbal.   Motives can be discerned by someone whose consciousness is in the World of Emanation.

I can discern sin in your hearts.  I do not hear any words, I do not hear any audible speech, it is a knowing, a knowing.   Thoughts or intents of your heart are discerned from the World of Emanation where the mind of Christ is.  I was running into a little problem with my exhortation before I put this on the board, because the word "thought and speech" mean one thing in Kabbalah, and they mean something else in my everyday conversation with you, and when I talk to you about spiritual things.  Therefore, I put this in the board for you.  Are there any questions about this? 

Aafter this I am just going to read the last couple of lines from drawing #1, and we are going to close because it is pretty late here, and I am losing you all anyway, so are there any questions on this board?  No? 

I was telling you, or I was reading from the lower left-hand corner of drawing #1, and I was saying that the World of Creation, Beriah, is the thoughts of God, and that I just explained to you is the non-verbal.  It does not come forth in the thoughts that sound like words. It is just an impulse, the thoughts of God, and the World of Emanation, Atzilut, is the mind of Christ which discerns the intents and the motives of your heart and judges righteous judgment.

The fifth world, which is sometimes called the fifth world, is Adam Kadmon, where the speaking silence is and, of course, Adam Kadmon is appearing to us today as the Lord Jesus in that innermost place where Elijah heard that still small voice.  It is called the "speaking silence" which is the Word of God, the speaking silence.

The Hebrew word for speaking silence is Chashmal, and that is the word that is translated as "amber" in Ezekiel 1.   We are told that this Hebrew word was chosen because it seemed to have something to do with a power that radiates.  It is also associated with the color amber, but in reality that is not why the word Chashmal was chosen.  When you break down this Hebrew Chashmal in a deeper level, it really says, "the speaking silence," and this is very interesting, because we are told that when you get into this really deep meditative state, you can hear color, and see sound. 

Does anybody know how you could hear color and see sound?  Both color and sound are vibrations.  They vibrate, and every level of vibration has associated with it a sound and a color.  Technically speaking, you can see sound if you can see a sound wave.  If you have a machine that can identify a sound wave for you, you can see sound, and if you know how to recognize a particular color associated with a certain level of vibration, and every level of vibration has a sound, so let us say, you are in a laboratory, and you have the ability to flash the color yellow. In order for a color yellow to appear, there has to be a vibration. 

Everything is vibrating in this world. There is a particular level of vibration that is associated with the color yellow, and if you have the right equipment, you can hear the sound that is associated with that vibration, because every vibration has a sound.  You may not be able to hear it with a human ear, but every level of vibration has a sound. 

Once you identify a particular level of vibration with a color, if ever you should be able, let us say you could not see, you were blindfolded, but you heard that sound, you would know that it was the color yellow.  We are told that when you get into this deepest place, the place where Adam Kadmon is or the Lord Jesus Christ is, you are so aware of vibration and sound waves and colors that you can identify all of these things.

The place that the person who is meditating wants to attain to, that innermost section where the Lord Jesus is, or Adam Kadmon is, is the place called "nothingness," and remember there is a difference between nothing and nothingness.  Nothing means "of no value."  Satan is nothing, she has no value.  Nothingness is the term we use to describe the Ayn Sof, because the Ayn Sof is so high.  It is so high that it is so beyond anything that we relate to, we cannot comprehend it on any level; therefore, to us it is nothing.

There are, I am told, and I had a salesman come into my house once and show me all the bugs in my mattress, scared me half to death,  but I am told that there are entities, or whatever they are, insects, I do not even know how to describe them, everywhere.  If you have a strong enough magnifying glass, there are just, there is life everywhere, there are bugs in the carpet, there is bacteria on our flesh.  There are these bugs everywhere, but we cannot see them, so as far as we are concerned, they do not exist.  That means they are nothingness, they are there, but they are so beyond our comprehension that they are called nothingness, so the Ayn Sof is called nothingness.

The goal of meditation is to get into that deepest place where the Lord Jesus is, and where the Lord Jesus is, that is where the Ayn Sof is, and the Ayn Sof is nothingness.  We are trying to get into a place, or the person who is meditating is trying to get into a place where the only thing that he is aware of is the nothingness.  That means he wants to lock out of his mind everything to do with this world, and the question is, what does nothingness look like?  What does that mean?    The Hebrew person who is meditating, they focus on the Hebrew letter, they want to get to the point where everything is so locked out of their mind that their whole field of vision is only the Hebrew letter that they are meditating on.  Nothing else comes in.

I want to give you a very exciting testimony.  Remember, this is very hard, very few Jews that meditate can do this and, of course, the Hindus meditate in a similar way, but I am trying to keep this a Judeo-Christian message.  Can you imagine how hard that would be to close your eyes, lock out every sound, every thought, you have to go through all these four barriers, so that there is nothing that you are aware of, nothing that you are hearing, seeing?  You are aware of nothing except this one Hebrew letter which is filling up the whole plane of your mind.  This takes a tremendous discipline of mind, and we are told that when the Jew gets to that point,  he receives revelation.  

Several years ago, I was having a problem that I could not identify. The manifestations in my life were very distressing to me, and I cried out to God to help me, somebody prayed for me, I asked someone to pray for me, and at the end of that prayer I saw, in the spirit, this Hebrew letter come into my whole spiritual vision, my whole spiritual vision filled up with the Hebrew letter resh, and I knew that the Hebrew resh was the letter that signifies the captain of the host. I knew it meant Jesus, because resh means head, and that Hebrew letter filled up my whole spiritual vision, and I knew that it meant that He was coming to save me from this very difficult situation.

It happened to me one time, and now years later I read about it in this book, and I realized what happened to me.  What happened to me is because I have Christ, because I have the privilege of having Christ grafted to me, and I do not have to do what the Jew does.  I do not have to spend hours getting into this meditative state, if I could possibly achieve it.  Personally, I do not think I could achieve it, but the Lord Jesus Christ did it for me.

I cried out to Jesus for help, and I reached that place where everything was blocked out of my mind except the Hebrew letter resh, and Jesus did all the work.  I did not even know what had happened.

I remember saying, "Oh look at that, I see the Hebrew letter resh, I wonder what that means?"  In all of my naivety, I experienced something that probably most Jews would give their eye teeth to experience.  I went all the way into the deepest place, because Jesus Christ took me there in response to my heart-felt prayer and deliver me, He did.  The deliverance fell the next day.  What am I telling you?  Again, that is the whole intent of this message.  We are going to have the experiences that the meditative Jew who is keeping the law in every way that he can, is seeking with all of his heart, we are going to have these experiences without all of that work, without all of that difficulty, that so few people could even attain.  This is available to us in Christ Jesus.  This is an outright miracle access to the most inner place where the Ayn Sof dwells because of our relationship with Jesus Christ. 

We are talking about Ezekiel's experience.  He is trying to get to a level of nothingness where everything is tuned out but the image he wants to see.  I did not have to do anything to do that.  Ezekiel  had to pass through the four distinct barriers in order to do that, and now he finally gets in there, and the experience that he is having is that he is experiencing speech and silence at the same time.  What does that mean?  The verbal and the non-verbal parts of his mind are experiencing different things simultaneously.  The verbal and the non-verbal parts of his mind, that is the unconscious and the subconscious part of his mind, are experiencing different things simultaneously.

That is no small feat. In addition, he is seeing something that looks like a speaking silence. What looks like a speaking silence is that he is experiencing something, but it is not with his eyes.

It is my understanding from my studies that this amber color, xxxasgill, is the color of silence, and what that really means is that Ezekiel had an experience, a spiritual experience which was a very advanced level of what is called synesthesia.  This is one of the common phenomena in a very deep meditative state where a person will actually smell or hear colors, smell colors or hear colors or see sounds, and it is interesting because we were talking about this the other day. 

I do not know whether I had it on a tape or not, but we were talking about the Word of Knowledge that comes through smell.  I told you that once I was praying for a woman, and I got this strong whiff of alcohol, and I knew that her problem was alcoholism.  She could not tell me. She came up and asked for deliverance from witchcraft, I do not know...she just could not tell me what was wrong, and I got this strong whiff of alcohol.  I said to her, "Is your problem alcoholism?"  Her whole face fell.

That means, and I have heard of other Christians having that kind of a Word of Knowledge, and I knew that it came from the brain, and it came from the highest Sefirah, Keter, but now when we get some more information to experience this, you have to pass into the deepest meditative state.  Once again, I was having an experience with my eyes wide open when I was praying for this woman, that the Jew has to go through hours of meditation to get to.  Not only does he have to go through hours of meditation, but when he experiences this, he is sitting in his chair, or wherever he is meditating, he is not out there talking, consciously communicating with people. 

We are receiving, those of us that pass through the barriers and join with the Lord Jesus Christ, we are receiving the benefits of the deep meditative state while our eyes are open, and we are walking around and talking to people and praying for people.  We are going way beyond in our spiritual experiences.  We are invited to go way beyond the experience of the meditating Jew, because the meditating Jew goes in and goes out, and he has to go inward to have his experiences, and all of his experiences are in this small little place within his mind. 

Jesus Christ was the first one to have these experiences in an outward expression, and He used it to heal people, and deliver people, and break the chains of bondage on the people.

The permanent meditative state, "And he shall no more go out,"  does not say "you." The King James translation says, "And he shall no more go out."  Christ Jesus in you shall no more go out, He is going to stay in that meditative state.  This experience of hearing what is usually seen was experienced by the Hebrew people in Exodus 20:15.  The people actually saw what it normally heard, and that suggests the high spiritual...that they entered into a deep meditative state through their communication with the Lord. 

XXXXX is going to read Exodus 20, I think it is maybe 16 in the King James, XXXXX.  That was Exodus 20:18, XXXXX will read it now.  "And all of the people saw the thunderings and the lightnings and the noise of the trumpet...," so they saw the thunderings, and they saw the noise.  "And the mountains smoking, and when the people saw it,